Bye in 8 hrs time

Setting off in 8 hours time, a short get away to Genting.

Looking forward, not to the final destination, but the coach that we are taking.
First class coach by Transtar.
Massaging chair, games, TV audio and there's even coach attendant to serve us all 3 meals.
Awesome shit!
Last time i worked there, freaking politics place.
Colleagues there are just...
Now is their turn to serve me, provided the old staffs are still there.
Hopefully they rem me, so that i can give them hell.
That's so not me la, i am so kind and nice and angel-like can. haha



I wonder what show they will have.



Right, we need to wake up around 4 plus,
planning not to sleep tonight, so that i can just concuss inside the bus for the whole journey,
but there's nothing to keep me awake and my eyes is failing on me.
Fine, shall sleep later.



Shall use this opportunity to make an important decision in my life.
Self reflection.
Planning.
Putting up bits and pieces to form a whole picture.
That's what i am looking for.



Sick and tired of all the stagnancy.
I need some spices to spice up every single thing.
But when there's too much spices, i am afraid i cant take it.
Maybe i shld just let go of all the negative thoughts and give it a shot.
No harm trying.
if you like then u like lo,
if not, jus say bye bye and walk off lo.
What's so difficult.
But then again, stepping out the first step is always the most difficult part.



Another issue is that if you tell someone, just anyone, ur friends, some stranger, some random passerby about your plan, your decision, idk, there's like 99% chance that they will give you negative comment abt it.
That's when i will take a step back from the half step i have made,
and think abt it all over again.
And the cycle goes on and on and on on on....



So, i have decided,
i will not reveal anything to anyone abt the plan i am working on,
not really like a plan, but more on a decision i have made for my future.
I will go through everything secretly,
going for interview secretly,
practice my interview script secretly,
cry secretly upon failure.
Things will only be reveal when everything goes smoothly.
Wohoho, sounds like a super good idea.



Even though half of my dearest have found their other half and another half is still trying our best to look for our other half, haha, i shall not any-o-how step into a relationship with any-o-how guy.
Especially those who claim that they are devoted but actions speak otherwise, just f. off ok?
Including those who always sweet talk combining with all the floral sweet scent sentence, please leave me alone. Just one conversation will cause me diabetes. I dun want that.
Mum told me if i am not interested, i shld not entertain em, and i think mum is totally right.
My bad for leading on and i promise, no more of it.
Brand new chapter for me.
Hmm, shall let nature take its course, no more of looking forward, no more unreality of thoughts, just a new start.



I am kind of positive when writing this entry.
Hope this will maintain.





Cindy, signing off.

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