Let's end this and Welcome that

Thinking back of the past will not make your future better in any ways.


2009:
-Graduated from Poly
-Work in Jo Malone for a short period
-Join MissFashion
-Work for Tobacco company for 2 months plus
-Continue at MissFashion
-Learn some working experience
-Join Aerobics & aqua aerobics
-First overseas trip with friend (BKK, with jasmine)
-Made new friends, good and bad ones
-Went Taiwan trip with family
-Left MissFashion
-Celebrate all festives with my love ones
-Excited over small thing
-Disappointed with a guy
-Irritated by a guy
-Glad to know Jasmine as a friend
-Know that i love my family
-Always have a good laugh at Beng


I will bring some of the memories together with me next year.
The rest will remain in the year 2009.




Not hoping for anything next year,
but i just pray hard that everything will go smoothly for me.

Here wishing all my friends and stalker:

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

because, i just knew

LO HA

I saw a pair of very cool fury shoes at Topshop, selling at only 30 plus.
So tempted to buy la. Winter at Taiwan, must get some thick clothing and shoes b4 going.
But you know, must save now.


So over the past few weeks is like party animal.
We drank and eat, drank and eat.
Every single birthday party we nv fail to gorge ourselves with food.
I promise that i will never touch alcohol again, because, i am kind of sick of it.

Shiok and i tried graveyard and superflaming on Wednesday, we survive well.
All the comments regarding graveyard is i think is kind of, exaggerating.
But i think this is very subjective. So i shall not blame those who cause me to have a second thoughts to try it.
Gwen's birthday party on Sat, so ya, what's a night w/o enough dares and Volka.
I can only say that most of us are well trained enough, execpt the usual 2, Philly and Gwen.

No more alcohol.
Too much of it flowing inside my blood stream.


On Sat, Jasmine and i attended a charity seminar organise by MediaCorps, Power in your hands by CANON.
Speakers includes, Tay Ping Hui and Daniel Ong.
Daniel Ong is so entertaining la.
He spoke just like how it sounded on radio, we close our eyes on the spot and is really the same sound. Like duh, is the same guy, but the feeling is so amazing la.
We wanted to take a picture with them, but somehow, we just find it damn awkward to ask em though they are really nice and friendly person.
We do not want to act like those ppl who go gaga over celebrity. Yeap, ego!
After that we hop on to Hippo tour and snap snap snap.
All thanks to my Canon G10 who died on me halfway through the journey, i am only able to snap some nice shot.
Shall share nice photos here.

Ok, it might not look as pro as those photos taken by pro photographer, but u just wait.
I will come back with more pro look alike photos aft i attend some lesson by Canon.

you just wait and see see look look!

Bye in 8 hrs time

Setting off in 8 hours time, a short get away to Genting.

Looking forward, not to the final destination, but the coach that we are taking.
First class coach by Transtar.
Massaging chair, games, TV audio and there's even coach attendant to serve us all 3 meals.
Awesome shit!
Last time i worked there, freaking politics place.
Colleagues there are just...
Now is their turn to serve me, provided the old staffs are still there.
Hopefully they rem me, so that i can give them hell.
That's so not me la, i am so kind and nice and angel-like can. haha



I wonder what show they will have.



Right, we need to wake up around 4 plus,
planning not to sleep tonight, so that i can just concuss inside the bus for the whole journey,
but there's nothing to keep me awake and my eyes is failing on me.
Fine, shall sleep later.



Shall use this opportunity to make an important decision in my life.
Self reflection.
Planning.
Putting up bits and pieces to form a whole picture.
That's what i am looking for.



Sick and tired of all the stagnancy.
I need some spices to spice up every single thing.
But when there's too much spices, i am afraid i cant take it.
Maybe i shld just let go of all the negative thoughts and give it a shot.
No harm trying.
if you like then u like lo,
if not, jus say bye bye and walk off lo.
What's so difficult.
But then again, stepping out the first step is always the most difficult part.



Another issue is that if you tell someone, just anyone, ur friends, some stranger, some random passerby about your plan, your decision, idk, there's like 99% chance that they will give you negative comment abt it.
That's when i will take a step back from the half step i have made,
and think abt it all over again.
And the cycle goes on and on and on on on....



So, i have decided,
i will not reveal anything to anyone abt the plan i am working on,
not really like a plan, but more on a decision i have made for my future.
I will go through everything secretly,
going for interview secretly,
practice my interview script secretly,
cry secretly upon failure.
Things will only be reveal when everything goes smoothly.
Wohoho, sounds like a super good idea.



Even though half of my dearest have found their other half and another half is still trying our best to look for our other half, haha, i shall not any-o-how step into a relationship with any-o-how guy.
Especially those who claim that they are devoted but actions speak otherwise, just f. off ok?
Including those who always sweet talk combining with all the floral sweet scent sentence, please leave me alone. Just one conversation will cause me diabetes. I dun want that.
Mum told me if i am not interested, i shld not entertain em, and i think mum is totally right.
My bad for leading on and i promise, no more of it.
Brand new chapter for me.
Hmm, shall let nature take its course, no more of looking forward, no more unreality of thoughts, just a new start.



I am kind of positive when writing this entry.
Hope this will maintain.





Cindy, signing off.

something, nothing

Thursday Morning

Thursday morning, obviously at work.
Everything tone down alot, when i say alot, it really mean A.LOT!
Just when i want to make every single day of mine exciting and full of fulfillment,
things upon things happen again and again.

I loan a book from library "NO MORE MONDAYS",
is a motivational book,
teaching u how to make your everyday working life to something that is more meaningful.
For example, do u see yourself being laid off as an crisis or another opportunity?
If i am still the old me, i will see it as a crisis. Going through interview again and again, hearing upon the low pay jus make everything CHUI.
But now, i will see it as an opportunity. You get to learn new things in another new environment. More new things meaning u can add more things to your resume, isn't it?

Everyone does make mistake, everyone will have a day they just fall, thinking this is it. Am not going to do anything about it.
However, does doing that resolve any problem. NO, i tell you.
Easier say than done, ya, is not easy.
I have been through.
But i am glad, there are many support to bring me up to feet again.

Is just so difficult to put in words.
So now what?
Hopefully we can bear through this year.

I have got so many interesting picture to share.
But then again, is blog still an IN thing?
When more and more website is up for interacting in a more easier and convenient way, like twitter and FB?
Ok, nvm, i shall still upload some nice nice picture =))

Healthy baby!

Dont you just find this ice cream very oldies,
flashback return to our young age where we will jus stare at the ice cream corner at some mama shop, crying for our mum to get it for us. HAHA!

Korean class is ending soon, 2 more classes i think.
We wanted to continue with intermediate class, however, we have decided to break for awhile before we carry on with the next lesson.

Same goes to aerobics, but but but, we have signed up for AQUA Aerobics.
How awesome!!!
I think we are being abit impulse as we sign up for the course straight away without any much discussion. But well, as we do not have any commitment on Thursday, why not?

I guess i am coping just well.
I duno if i am being myself but i guess that's just fine.

Life is short, we should just go ahead with the things we want to do.
Actualli, i do regret with some of the choices i made over the years.
I keep telling myself, what if, what if, if if if, will things turn out to be better?
Too much "if" will only make u regret.
So i told myself, no more IF in the future, jus follow my heart to do the things that i wanna do.
Just like thailand trip!
We did not plan much and we just go ahead with the airplane ticket and all.
If at that point of time we thought of the riots, the dangers and all, i guess we will still be in Singapore thinking, IF we nv think so much, we will be enjoying ourselves in Thailand.
This kind of thinking happen MOST of the time and i hate it. So, NO MORE IF!
I just hope i will get support frm my family and my friends.
I need their encouragement to move on. =))

Is always too late to realise

Am back for BKK a week ago.
We had fun, and i mean serious FUN.
For more details, do check out http://www.earthyelement.blogspot.com
(Credit to Jasmine)

I am going to date my gf SY out soon,
as she has nt been contacting me ever since i came back from Thailand,
i bet she is waiting for me to make the first move.
Ok, i will date u out soon!

Before i went for Thailand,
i told myself to put a stop in everything here,
so when i return to Singapore, everything will be back to normal.

I did not expect any clarification because there's no need for that.
I thought i shldnt be reacting in such a big hoo ha in this situation,
but whenever i told my friend abt it, they will be creating a bigger hoo hoo ha than me,
dat's when i realize, i m a fool.

There's no such thing as "Friends again" in my dictionary, u knew it if u realli understand me.
Just like my entry title "Is always too late to realize"
C'mon, it doesnt make any difference and it wont make any difference.
You may have millions and zillions of excuses for urself, but hey, it doesnt bother me anymore.

So, what's next!

Next up will be plans for Adeline's bday,
the silly gal who landed herself almost the same as my situation.

and then,
HALLOWEEN!!!
Being the festive IC, i'll be bringing all my babes to Night Safari!
We will dress like the following
-Sexy nurse
-Ghost Student
-?
-?
Shit, brain dead, cannot think of what's e other 2.
LOL

Yeap, so being the happy gal once again,
i will place my focus on more constructive thing,
like, planning more things for myself to attend.
Aerobics are left will a few more session, maybe shall sign up for kickboxing...

Love my family more as i can always feel their concern for me.
Mum thought that i m broke thus explain my lack of mood,
Dad thought that i m out of love (this is uber funny when mum told me this)
Sis thought that i have prob at work (partially)
Only beng didnt show any concern, hahaha, idiot her! Ok la, coz is her exam period.

Love my 7 gals more as they always provide me with the best advice.

Love Jasmine more as she always bring laughter for me and hear my complains.

Most importantly,

LOVE MYSELF MORE,
coz i just deserve it.
HAHAHA!

Holiday happy, Happy Holiday

I always have this "ThankGodIsFriday" feeling back in sch, back in attachment period.
Now, this feeling is gone, because my job is a 5.5 days job.
The feeling is postpone-d to Saturday.

Working peeps will be enjoying their long weekends, just like me because such thing do not usually happen, is like a once or twice thing in A YEAR! Freaking 365 days ok!
So how did i spent my weekends?
Eventually, Saturday is supposed to be spend with my best friend,
who knows something came like so last min, that i have to let her home to rest.
I dressed up for nthing lo. Waste my time.
So i went home, wanted to catch some show with mum,
who knows i just knock out while waiting for em to decide which show to watch.
I just concussed till late evening.
Do you all know the feeling of having a nap, a nap without any dream, without any stress, and the waking up feeling is damn refreshing?
I lost the feeling ever since poly life i guess, now i have gotten it back and i am glad. Hee!

Today i stayed at home to do all the household chores.
Had breakfast, lunch and dinner with family.
I think back, when was the last time i spend my weekends with my family, i cannot remember.
This is making me guilty. Bad =/
Is not always a must to be out on every weekends, because what we needed most is plenty of rest, to replenish all the energy lost during weekdays.
So maybe i will be 宅女from now on.
JUS KIDDING!

I have got 2 years to get myself slim and pretty!

Something that keep me going

I tweet more than i blog. =)

I allow myself to be a emo freak for just one day,
because i just have to be strong.

I make a decision and i regretted.
I have no ideas how many time in my life that i chose and regret.
But you see, dat's how we learn, in a harder way.

I am glad even though i made wrong choices almost everytime,
when i turn back, they are still there for me.
Always there...
When that happen, i will tell myself i m not gonna let them down again,
however, this cycle goes on and on and on.

I duno wat's going on with me.
I guess the only thing that i can do now is to block everything out of my life again.
Sad to say, the barrier is up.
You caused it and you are simply an ass to do such thing.

Speechless.
I swear is not gonna be again, but GOODBYE!

I have gotten myself a new baby!!!
My canon powershot G10, and i am having a hard time understanding him.
Nevertheless, i still love him =))

Saturday Morning

Day alone at office today.
Jasmine abandoned me again.
Bad girl.

This week is a week full of ups and downs.
2 simple days can make me feel like giving up something.
I just feel like cursing and swearing for those days.
But then again, those days were over.
I am glad to have some ppl in my life to cheer me on,
asking me not to give up,
telling me their own experience and bla bla.

I guess i am someone who of emotions,
sibei mood swing...
I dun realli tok to ppl abt my prob,
becoz i dun see e point of me pouring out all my whiny complaints to them when firstly, they will jus console u w/o evaluating e prob, so when they tell me e prob i will jus shut em off,
secondly, i am afraid i will jus burst to bucket of tears when telling em what happen.

I am glad i have her in life.
She's always there for me.
Giving me advise,
giving me e chance to scream out loud, even to her.

Thanks Siying,
is my fortunate to know u in life. =)))

*SHALL END E CHAPTER FOR THIS F. WEEK!
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I'll by flying off on the 24th Sep to Sawatikap kap kap!!!
Going with Jasmine!
Only 2 of us.
We were so excited when we tok abt it,
but when we are going to book the air tix, we felt so uneasy.
HAHA. Girls!

I am realli looking forward to the trip.
A trip that can teach us to be independent =))
A trip to let our hair down and go for million times of massage,
do medi and pedi, change nails color every single day.
Bring back another 2 more luggage with lots of clothes, bags and shoes inside.
Maybe i can smuggle a thai bf back here too, so that he can cook for me tom yum noodle.

2 more HHHRRRSSS to end of work!

Hello Readers!

Ang neo ha seh yo!

Yes, today will be my third korean lesson. Is getting more and more interesting when you can learn more words which you can use in ur everyday life. For eg, baboh, meaning idiot. LOL

Twitter is getting more and more common. Introduce by jasmine, thus explaining this dead blog.
What makes me come back again is becoz suddenly i feel so emotional and wanna pen down my thoughts.
Twitter is for summary and i totally cannot summarized my thoughts is less than maybe 20 words.

Ok, back to topic.

I feel dat i am veri fortunate as compared to some of my friends, in terms of many things.
However, human beings are all one kind, nv satisfied with what they have.
What they do is to complain, complain and complain.

I am trying my very best in everything i do,
realli am trying hard. But when things get so stagnant and there's nthing for u to strive hard, is just like brain dead, routine cycle.
Daddy always tell me dat whatever u do, try to gain more experience. It will be beneficial for u in ur future. You might not see it now, but definitely in the near future.
I always feel very guilty when he told me dat, becoz i duno what i have gained.
Maybe there's some changes, some experience gained, but i guessed is so unknowingly.

I am trying to learn more things when life for me now is quite flexible.
No sch stress and wat's not.
I took up korean lesson, i go gym at least once a week, i took up cross training aerobics.
I want to expose myself to more things.
Am also very proud of myself to see a 4 digit amount in my bank account. yea, maybe is nthing, but then is a achievement for me.

Feeling is kind of strange, i just hope time will pass quickly to next year and da-tah, a brand new life for me.

That's hw i feel.

Who in the world will understand? Maybe 1, or maybe 2, or maybe majority of e population are experiencing wat i am facing now. But then, there's no one who can gif u a helping hand becoz, is ur life. u are e one who has e full control of ur life. So just plan ur life well till e day u die.

There's always one saying, dun live ur life with regrets.
But i am always regretting with the decision i have made.
That's me and i hate it.
Like wat i have said, nv satisfied.

Ok, move on! I believe that i can do better!

Random!

In one of my folder, i found these:


The blue black i've gotten when i fell off from my bicycle on Miang's bday.
Super big, dun dare to wear shorts for a period of time.

Custom-made biscuit for Beng. FYI, her name is ELISE.
My 2 sis and I heart this biscuit, nv get sick of this. =)
Is quite diff to find it though.

The cute little Elmo cost Jasmine $14 and the mickey hanky cost me $16.
After signing up for Korea Lesson at Cityhall, we went Marina Square for SHOPPING.
They have so many "catch bear" machines there.
Initially we only spend 5 bucks each, but then we din catch anything, so we spend another 5 bucks, one aft another......
See hw ex the elmo and the mickey is.
Simply not our luck. HAHA

Hair band from KOREA. Very unique, but not my style.


Bye purple hair

Working for British American Tobacco tml.
Which means,
-I have to wake up at 6 again,
-I have to travel to woodlands,
-I will only reach home at 8 plus,
-I have to slp early every night,
-I cant join my ladies for ladies night
=(
Just for 1 last week, everything will be back to normal.
ENDURE! For the sake of MONEY!

Surviving, still surviving

Ever since i took up the temp marketing rep job,
i realise i do not have the time for my family, friends, not even myself.
Leave home everyday @ 6 plus in e morning, back at home only at 8 plus.
By the time i m home, i will just concuss on my bed.
That marks e end of a day.
Lifeless isnt it. Yea, i totally think so.
However, i do enjoy e feeling of being busy.
I spent my day wisely, but nt at home slacking and eating junk food.
Although i dun see e end product now, i know end of month i will.. =)

If you realise, i have violet hair!
Previously is with blue highlights, but e colour didnt even last me for a month, so i went Chap 2 for this purple hair.
My friends was asking me if i change colour every week.
I told em next week i will change to yellow. Haha!

Finally a day i can rest at home,
i didnt touch my com for a week!
Feel so uncomfortable.
Sunday is a day when i can do all my things,
pack my stuffs and replenish my energy.

After this, am gonna to wash my shoes, pack my closet and my table.

Hello WORLD

Hello World!

I became a busy woman all of a sudden.
I manage to find myself a full time job and also a 1 month part time job with good money.
With Jo malone's pay coming in on the 10th, plus my full and part time job, am gonna be a happy woman this month. =)

In the end, i did not appeal for the 2 Uni.
Though now a degree is nothing, it is still a MUST to obtain it.
However, i m trying to get myself involve in other things first, for example, earn lots of $$$$$.
In the mean time, i will take up courses to upgrade myself.
I have decided to give myself 2 years to do all the things.

I realli hope that my family will give me full support of what i m going to do.

Stay happy WORLD

End-Start

All thanks to Jasmine, i found a job that i have no problem in waking up early in the morning.

HAPPY GRADUATION!

Never contented.

Yesterday was my 1 week anniversary at work.
What can i say? Money nv come easy.
Long hrs of standing, standing and standing...
However, i am able to learn lots of new things abt fragrances and hand and arm massage.
Also, learning to work in a fast pace environment and also nice packaging for gifts.
I was taught to be independent, under the "bo pian" act due to shortage of manpower.

I decided to gif myself a little break today coz my cough is still disturbing me,
not veri nice to keep coughing in the shop as we r always in close contact with the customer.

My payday is on the 10th.
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
& my schedule sux though,
but for e sake of $$$$$$$, i will endure for maybe another month =)

am tired

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